Deep in thought, we walked- on and on, without paying much attention to our surroundings, ourselves or us! We walked like two living graveyards and my mind was blocked to do any sort of talking. Did this affect you?
At times like these, self doubts arose and I began thinking whether you really cared. I knew I did…about you…but was it the same from your side too?
I was in doubt always and it lead me to not ask you anything about it. Every time I thought of bringing up the topic, it seemed to be the wrong time…not the opportune moment! I wish for only that moment that you could read my thoughts. Did you care what I thought of you? Did you care whether I thought of you at all? The doubt manifested itself into making me think that I did not matter to you, that I had ceased to make a difference!
And yet when we passed each other in the corridors and our arms brushed past each other, all my doubts were vanished in thin air. When you look into my eyes the way only you can, you complete me! All the stupid mistakes I make which make you smile make me laugh! At times when silence is what I need but your still there holding my hand, I feel loved…comforted! Every moment I spend with you, I live in the present or mostly it’s just re-living our past moments. I wait for you to come after me and when you do, I forget my troubles. When we are together, to me everyone else on Earth suddenly becomes non-existent…it’s just me and you.
The time when you say you love me, I take that to be the truth even though it is not so. The time we hug my mind is locked into only thinking about you.
Tiny things, like these make the biggest of differences and though there are times that we spend quietly thinking, those are the times I treasure those are the moments I spend with you.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Everyone's cup of Tea....or NOT!
His heart pounded against his ribcage, blood tingled in every pore of his body with such ferocity that it was a wonder how it didn’t just burst out. He was finding it very hard to focus, his mind was spinning; time and again he found his eyes close- in a state of semi- consciousness.
He tried calming down but to no avail. Fear gripped his innards with a vice-like grip, unwilling to let go.
The urge was a frantic one now, if nothing could be done in the next few minutes he would be facing dire consequences, consequences he did not want to be party to. His clothes were drenched and he was going weak in the knees…
His mind had given in to the urge long back but his addiction spurred him on, giving him the energy to carry on…
He was losing hope of finding what he was looking for and yet there was something that didn’t let him give in.
But…
Piece by piece, from within he could feel it all fall apart. A minor trembling of the hands now became stronger, he couldn’t think, he couldn’t run. He craved for it. What had been just a want earlier became a need now...
This torture was too much...
He walked and walked and walked some more…and in the distance he noticed a tapri!
In all its grandeur and splendor he saw not a rundown shack but a mini palace selling small cups of elixir…small cups of tea!
And as he saw these sights in the distance, the contours of his face changed. The look of pain, fear and a look of manic hope were washed over by the feeling of sudden calmness.
He sped towards the tapri, but never seemed to get any closer! He laughed it off, feeling it was his tired mind playing dirty games with his mind…
But what he had laughed off a few minutes back didn’t seem to be a laughing matter anymore. His lips were parched and dry, his taste buds craved for that one sip of tea like a child craved for a new toy….
But fate had played its game; he wasn’t destined to have the elixir he craved for…
He would have to writhe in pain and suffer for the day and perhaps put off the satisfaction of having tea till another day!
He tried calming down but to no avail. Fear gripped his innards with a vice-like grip, unwilling to let go.
The urge was a frantic one now, if nothing could be done in the next few minutes he would be facing dire consequences, consequences he did not want to be party to. His clothes were drenched and he was going weak in the knees…
His mind had given in to the urge long back but his addiction spurred him on, giving him the energy to carry on…
He was losing hope of finding what he was looking for and yet there was something that didn’t let him give in.
But…
Piece by piece, from within he could feel it all fall apart. A minor trembling of the hands now became stronger, he couldn’t think, he couldn’t run. He craved for it. What had been just a want earlier became a need now...
This torture was too much...
He walked and walked and walked some more…and in the distance he noticed a tapri!
In all its grandeur and splendor he saw not a rundown shack but a mini palace selling small cups of elixir…small cups of tea!
And as he saw these sights in the distance, the contours of his face changed. The look of pain, fear and a look of manic hope were washed over by the feeling of sudden calmness.
He sped towards the tapri, but never seemed to get any closer! He laughed it off, feeling it was his tired mind playing dirty games with his mind…
But what he had laughed off a few minutes back didn’t seem to be a laughing matter anymore. His lips were parched and dry, his taste buds craved for that one sip of tea like a child craved for a new toy….
But fate had played its game; he wasn’t destined to have the elixir he craved for…
He would have to writhe in pain and suffer for the day and perhaps put off the satisfaction of having tea till another day!
Monday, July 19, 2010
Flying High
Udaan Review
Director: Vikramaditya Motwane/Anurag Kashyap
Music Director: Amit Trivedi
Movie Cast: Rajat Barmecha, Ronit Roy, Aayan Boradia, Ram Kapoor, Manjot Singh, Anand Tiwari, Suman Mastkar, Raja Hudda, Varun Khettry, Shaunak Sengupta, Akshay Sachdev
Udaan is one of those movies that manages to touch each and every emotion present in your conscience. It will tickle your funny bone, create lumps in your throat, make you go on a nail biting spree and then you come out of the hall feeling that there’s a bond you’ve created with the character on screen. It manages to affect you in a way that makes you think that you are the protagonist yourself. Udaan is the yearning that every kid has; to be free from all that keeps him bound to something or the other in his life.
One can relate to the film. And that is what I believe to be debutant director Vikramaditya Motwane’s greatest achievement. The ability to create a relation with the audience!
Holding certain scenes to a certain length what the director does is that he makes you feel the plight of Rohan (Rajat Barmecha) who is shackled to his father’s (Ronit Roy) strict and regimental will. He makes you absorb exactly what Rohan might be going through- the claustrophobia of having to agree to work in his father’s factory when he wants to study literature and become a writer, the fact that he yearns to be with his friends in Mumbai and run away from his dull life. He is also to cope with the fact that he has a step brother (Aayan Barodia) of whose existence until then he did not know. The only solace he finds is in his chachu (Ram Kapoor), who is willing to give the kid a chance to follow his own dream. But then the solace too is temporary as things keep heating up between father and son.
After being kicked out of boarding school for some mischief Rohan arrives home and thus is established the father-son relationship which is not as pretty as one would like it to be. Ronit Roy’s character is more of a ruler/dictator of the house than a father albeit a few moments of rare fatherly behavior. He cares and yet is unable to love. He is the “control freak” in the house who sees his son’s through the eyes of a master and not a father. Rohan’s high flying life of boarding school comes to a premature end and life under his “father’s rule” stagnates to such an extent that we see the rise of his rebel side suddenly things get ugly. The father son relationship deteriorates and a strong bond is created between the two step brothers’- they are two victims trapped in the same boat.
The best part of the movie is that Rohan’s life is told through a series of metaphors, which is brilliant and thus the relationships of father and son and the two brother’s is established.
Stealing a few moments of joy by riding all night having taken his dad’s Contessa, sharing a few drinks with his friends and then the frustration as the Contessa breaks down signifying the stagnation in his life are but a few examples of the kind of metaphors used in the movie. The movie is long; a 2 hour affair but not even for one moment is it dull or dragging. Performances by each of the actors be it Rajat Barmecha, Aayan Barodia, Ronit Roy or Ram Kapoor are excellent and very well suited to the kind of the role they were given. The music by Amit Trivedi only enriches the whole experience.
Udaan is a MUST WATCH and definitely one of the best to have been made this year. Kudos to Vikramaditya Motwane for coming up with such a fresh, refreshing and real concept.
Director: Vikramaditya Motwane/Anurag Kashyap
Music Director: Amit Trivedi
Movie Cast: Rajat Barmecha, Ronit Roy, Aayan Boradia, Ram Kapoor, Manjot Singh, Anand Tiwari, Suman Mastkar, Raja Hudda, Varun Khettry, Shaunak Sengupta, Akshay Sachdev
Udaan is one of those movies that manages to touch each and every emotion present in your conscience. It will tickle your funny bone, create lumps in your throat, make you go on a nail biting spree and then you come out of the hall feeling that there’s a bond you’ve created with the character on screen. It manages to affect you in a way that makes you think that you are the protagonist yourself. Udaan is the yearning that every kid has; to be free from all that keeps him bound to something or the other in his life.
One can relate to the film. And that is what I believe to be debutant director Vikramaditya Motwane’s greatest achievement. The ability to create a relation with the audience!
Holding certain scenes to a certain length what the director does is that he makes you feel the plight of Rohan (Rajat Barmecha) who is shackled to his father’s (Ronit Roy) strict and regimental will. He makes you absorb exactly what Rohan might be going through- the claustrophobia of having to agree to work in his father’s factory when he wants to study literature and become a writer, the fact that he yearns to be with his friends in Mumbai and run away from his dull life. He is also to cope with the fact that he has a step brother (Aayan Barodia) of whose existence until then he did not know. The only solace he finds is in his chachu (Ram Kapoor), who is willing to give the kid a chance to follow his own dream. But then the solace too is temporary as things keep heating up between father and son.
After being kicked out of boarding school for some mischief Rohan arrives home and thus is established the father-son relationship which is not as pretty as one would like it to be. Ronit Roy’s character is more of a ruler/dictator of the house than a father albeit a few moments of rare fatherly behavior. He cares and yet is unable to love. He is the “control freak” in the house who sees his son’s through the eyes of a master and not a father. Rohan’s high flying life of boarding school comes to a premature end and life under his “father’s rule” stagnates to such an extent that we see the rise of his rebel side suddenly things get ugly. The father son relationship deteriorates and a strong bond is created between the two step brothers’- they are two victims trapped in the same boat.
The best part of the movie is that Rohan’s life is told through a series of metaphors, which is brilliant and thus the relationships of father and son and the two brother’s is established.
Stealing a few moments of joy by riding all night having taken his dad’s Contessa, sharing a few drinks with his friends and then the frustration as the Contessa breaks down signifying the stagnation in his life are but a few examples of the kind of metaphors used in the movie. The movie is long; a 2 hour affair but not even for one moment is it dull or dragging. Performances by each of the actors be it Rajat Barmecha, Aayan Barodia, Ronit Roy or Ram Kapoor are excellent and very well suited to the kind of the role they were given. The music by Amit Trivedi only enriches the whole experience.
Udaan is a MUST WATCH and definitely one of the best to have been made this year. Kudos to Vikramaditya Motwane for coming up with such a fresh, refreshing and real concept.
Friday, July 16, 2010
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