Black or White

They say that the skies are the limit
Am I to reach so high?
I keep spreading out like the wings of a bird
But always wonder why?
The birds are my guiding force, helping me to get somewhere!!
I wish I knew where I was going
....what I was destined to have been doing...
Life at times just doesnt seem to be fair!!
Why is there so much confusion
Is there a way I could lose 'em?
Why isn't life as simple....
...as simple as black and white
without the varied shades of grey!!!
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They say that the skies are the limit
Am I to reach so high?
I keep spreading out like the wings of a bird
But always wonder why?
The birds are my guiding force, helping me to get somewhere!!
I wish I knew where I was going
....what I was destined to have been doing...
Life at times just doesnt seem to be fair!!
Why is there so much confusion
Is there a way I could lose 'em?
Why isn't life as simple....
...as simple as black and white
without the varied shades of grey!!!

Losing My Freedom

I am a confused soul right now and write in what one would call stream of consciousness. Bear with me.

“Rain pittered pattered all around and there were these two guys sitting on the pavement enjoying their tea. A weird feeling that gave me. Did I miss my flat mate or roommate? Maybe…. ”

Yesterday night it rained like never before…in Pune at least…and I was enjoying it all alone. I had time to contemplate. I had time to think.
A happy/sad feeling courses through me as I sit writing this. My mind is a puzzled pile of thoughts- each different and befuddling as the last. And here I sit and try to sort them out!
What is it about living alone that I like so much…or hate. ..Confusing emotions the two of them always mystifying the mind! This question bugs me to death and I guess I will take the doubt with me to the grave because I remain as puzzled as ever. It’s been awhile since I have been living alone…call that a boon or whatever, is your wish…to me though it seems like a cursed boon. I have loads and loads of privacy to do whatever I wish but then on the other hand I do miss the presence of someone to talk to, chat or gossip with, for someone just to exist around in the same place as me.
But then comes the fact that living alone for the past 2 and quarter months makes you get used to the feeling of being alone and slowly loving it!
Yess…loving it!
You live like a king on a double bed….you play music all night long at full volume, you dance, you cry do anything you wish without having the feeling of being conscience around that somebody sitting, eating, sleeping on the bed next to yours.
In a way I have noticed, when I sit to write I need complete peace…quiet…and silence which helps my thought process to function better and my being alone in the whole place is kind of perfect.
A little of this quietness is fine but then too much of anything is not good is it?
The mind is a superbly complex thing- when we have too much of something it begins to choke you into not wanting it and then when you don’t have much of it you pine for it. Time is one such thing.
Time moulds you into becoming a different person altogether. When coming to an empty house, one becomes a lot quieter. One tends to switch off completely; silence eats your soul from within even as noise engulfs the place around you. And this soon becomes a way of life to you.
It has become mine.
So now that I move out from this silent place of mine…
It bothers me…is the freedom I had gone for a toss?

With these thoughts I go into my new house!!! :D

Looking for an answer

“Things zoom in and out of my head. Justice, possibilities, bloody foolish gov’t….blah blah blah”

Ever since the discussion on David Headley and his plea bargain with the US, I have been thinking about it. The questions in my head just don’t seem to stop. Shiril Mani mam discussed this in the class what a bunch of idiots (if I may use the phrase!) our gov’t is for not doing much about it and just accepting the terms that the US is putting forward. I don’t know much about it, so what do I do about it….my lazy Sunday is spent reading about it…in a bid to quench the thirst of knowing developed because I seem to know so little.
He is a suspected operative of the Lashkar group, the one who did all the groundwork behind the 26/11 Mumbai blasts and has some 12 other charges of terrorism against him, he has pleaded guilty to all of the charges.
Will it be enough just to have a committee go to the US and question David or should I say Daood Gilani (his Arabic name)? Why is it that he can’t be extradited to India when all the crimes he’s done or was planning on doing are related to Indians? Does the committee (if ever formed by our famed gov’t) know what they will ask Headley when they go there or will they just waste precious time in knowing whatever they already know? Will they be able to dig out the multi layered secrets of the past; about LeT, their schemes, allies, plans and their links within Pakistan.
Headley maybe a happy man even if in prison, since he got what he wanted- life in an American prison might be way sweeter than one in India. Why is it that the Americans want to keep him? Agreed that 5 Americans did die in the Mumbai blasts but it doesn’t mean that they can rule the roost here. Why are they acting like such softies when they can really show the world the “super power” they CLAIM to be by taking a tough stand on this matter?
Mr. Chidambaram, our Home Minister says that it’s not much of a setback that David won’t be extradited to India. Are these statements a cover up for the pressure that he is facing? is this the way to address the latest developments in this case or just a laid back approach, in a bid to get more time, or for that matter, is it really going to be a huge step in our fight against terrorism?
It remains to be seen whether I, one of the many other flummoxed Indians, get an answer and maybe justice is served.